Why? Why, oh why would you put yourself through that, Thea? You know you suck at design. You’ve got a perfectly good career. What do you think you’re doing?
Yes, all of these things have repeated in my head. Over. And over. And over. And it’s only been three weeks. (What?? Only three weeks? You’re shitting me.)
I have nonetheless braved homework, rediculous schedules, and my own pride to bring you some initial thoughts. They’re random, because I haven’t had time to actually think them out. I have homework dammit.
Going back to school hurts
Instructors treat you like you’re just some kid. Fine. I’m 26. I am some kid. But dammit I get less talked down to by clients. (Sometimes.) And paperwork! God the paperwork. Jesus. Oh and knowing just exactly how outmoded the instructor’s way of thinking on my own specialty is – that’s infuriating. Last time around I didn’t have a specialty. I had no idea that was an advantage.
Learning new stuff hurts
It’s really hard not to think about how much I suck at this. I’ve finally gotten to the point where I’m really good at what I do and going back to square one is a serious burn to the ego. BUT YOU’VE ONLY BEEN DOING IT THREE WEEKS I tell myself. It still hurts to know nothing all of a sudden.
Everyone else is already better than me
I can’t believe these kids have never done this before. Can it be that it’s just because they’re way more passionate about it than I am? I’m doing this to augment my existing career. This *is* their career. Honestly though, I suspect they just have way more time than me. Also, Adderall.
Who the hell does this guy think he is anyway
I have to answer to this random dude who I could easily be ordering around at work. (By “ordering around” I mean sending content to and telling him where to put it.) And he’s all power-tripping and shit. What a douche. Who cares if you won an award in 1998. Seriously. But yeah, OK, you obviously still know more than me. About this.
Web design is hard
Dear every web designer ever,
I had no idea. I’m sorry.